An apology, long owed, to someone's friendship whom I once sowed.
Circumstances were unfortunate, and being young and inexperienced is terrifying. Sometimes you have to cling to the only life-raft you have, and live with the guilt.
For a long time, I have had anxiety over even answering the phone, any phone, in my home. I was afraid to talk to the people whom I once loved with all my heart, like family, whom I had let down. Whom I had betrayed. I still feel a great anxiety/fear over answering the phone for unknown numbers. I didn't want to hear the sadness, the pain, the hurt that I caused for making a decision that hurt me just as much as it hurt them. If I could have done more to stop what had happened, I would have. Once I make a folly, or miss one text or call, I feel like I can't reply back at all.
To err is to be human;
I just want a fresh start, and my old best friend back.